For the possible reason that I cannot post this over facebook, I'll jot it down here...

Well, starting January 2012, I've been opt to training under SAP. It was pretty much exciting because of a new learning application as IT. But it went not so good upon calling our dean at AMA branch and she told me that I'll be a dean for this coming trimester.

I was shocked at first and its like everything fell apart... I have so many plans for my Lord for this year and its like I'll be stuck at AMA. well, I tried to see good things for this new role that was assigned to me and even tried to receive other people's encouragement 'kaya mo yan!' but it seems everything is not good for me...

Right this very moment, I am in the midst of doing paper works and dean-ship things that i am not fond of... I'd rather be a teacher with good schedule than this one where I'll work 8 hours a day and I'll be stressed out. Its hard... Really hard.

O heavenly Father, if this is Your will for me, may You give me peace out of all these things. I am striving hard to catch up with these works but I think I cannot do it anymore... I like to quit this yet I'm still alive. As long as You live in my heart, I'll keep on fighting the good fight... for Your glory! And, if this is not really Your will, may You send me aid to be out of this that I'm going through. Thank You, In Jesus name, AMEN.

These are probable things that might take place personally this 2012.
1. Tent-making... Overseas missions.
2. Expansion of work over AMA Computer College Manila
3. Multiplication of disciples in PUP
4. Meeting the future 'mate'?
5. Opening a new ministry for One Faith
6. Transferring One Faith from Makati to Manila
7. Leaving haven
8. Passing Comprehensive Exam
9. Starting my Master's Thesis
10. Earning goals, career, faith.

These are just pre impressions...
I'll check next year if these things will get accomplished.
Blessings!

Katherene

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I know a lady who is patiently waiting for her prince to come.

She was trained not to be like a princess but a servant for everyone.

There may be hardships on her way in everything she does.

Yet I know deep inside her heart, perseverance is what keeps her going.

She always pray for her prince to come.

And even asked the Lord to protect her future mate.

Her excitement is always present every time she wonders.

And claims that her future will be brighter than ever.

Time passed and seasons changed.

This woman in wait flowed with grace.

Her heart turned like a still river.

Wanting not to wait but to be where she was.

Contentment was the word she always mutter.

Even provoked herself to deny marriage.

Convincing herself that her prince won't come.

Decided to serve and be kind to others.

Now, its still a puzzle how her story ends.

Picking up the pieces until it all happens.

Still waiting for God who really commends.

The future, the promise that cannot be broken.

 

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Its been so long since I've tolerated the things that are happening inside that crib. At first, it was so cool to be in that place for I guess there were people in love like the other one like the other and the other one like another one... Well, these were just my speculations. Are they trying to make impression on the one they like? Because after these things happened, the true color of life appeared.

Quarreling, disagreements, misunderstanding, frustrations were at hand. Then there were people who were added and summed up the dilemma. On my part, I want release... I badly needed release. Yet inside that crib, there is a chain within it and is connected in the shackles on my feet. So where else could I go?

Apparently, I cannot breathe. I think the only release I could have in this crib is death. Yes, death. I do not know myself anymore. everyday is like a stabbing pain inside me that really tortured my inner being. How could this possibly be?

I mean this crib was purposed to do good. For whom? for the people who will come to visit? I guess its true... They are visiting prisoner inside that crib. I am the great prisoner inside it. And up until now, I'm enduring.

Its so sad to be engaged inside that crib. You never know when will you get free. Freedom - the perfect word for those people who are happy. I hope that I have that too.

How I wish I could pour out these things to someone or really talk to someone about this and reveal the true meaning of these hidden words. But I can't.

Dear Lord, the only thing I ask for this moment is peace, release and FREEDOM.
Thank you!

THE GUY...

Amidst the distance, I saw you.
Amidst the crowd, you caught my attention.

Short clean cut which I liked
Your complexion that I dreamt of
Strong built and lean for a brave man
Can I see your face?
So I walked hastily just to see your face.

AS we walk, you're upfront yet Im distant
I was thinking, maybe You're my prince!
You look like you're fitted as my prince!
But then I realized I was not being faithful to my future mate.
Then I drew myself back and walked steadily.

I was thinking
Do you have those sweet lil eyes?
Do you have that perfect shape of nose that I look for?
Do you wear a simple smile?
Then you looked at your side
Indeed! you have those things.

This is a reality that made me think
Mostly, it will not happen.

   Well, I'm supposed to be at the prayer meeting today. I am really tired in every aspect I badly needed rest. The Lord gave me Matthew 11:28-30 and He said "come to me, all who are weary and I will give you rest"         

The youth were asking for a prayer meeting and I thought that I will not hinder His work in their lives. So the meeting proceeded with Robert Aniago and Julie Miranda's care.          

I also went home to clean up. The Lord is so good because He allowed my cousin to clean up the mess in house. Also, allowed my aunt to wash and iron my uniform for tomorrow. How sweet isn't it... I'm savoring these moments.         

Here and there am hearing negative feedback yet God is making me happy today. I've been totally drained and confused for days, weeks, moths? I cannot recall. I really wanted RELEASE from all these things - these sudden attacks that really hurt me yet the Lord is on my side. Thank you Jesus!         

Late this afternoon, after I regained some strength, He led me through Ecclesiastes 8 to 9.       

8th Book      

2 Obey the king since you vowed to God that you would. 3 Don't try to avoid doing your duty, and don't stand with those who plot evil, for the king can do whatever he wants. 4 His command is backed by great power. No one can resist or question it. 5 Those who obey him will not be punished. Those who are wise will find a time and a way to do what is right, 6 for there is a time and a way for everything, even when a person is in trouble.        

15 So I recommend having fun, because there is nothing better for people in this world than to eat, drink, and enjoy life. That way they will experience some happiness along with all the hard work God gives them under the sun.       

9th Book      

1 This, too, I carefully explored: Even though the actions of godly and wise people are in God's hands, no one knows whether God will show them favor. 2 The same destiny ultimately awaits everyone, whether righteous or wicked, good or bad, ceremonially clean or unclean, religious or irreligious. Good people receive the same treatment as sinners, and people who make promises to God are treated like people who don't.   

10 Whatever you do, do well. For when you go to the grave, there will be no work or planning or knowledge or wisdom.        

11 I have observed something else under the sun. The fastest runner doesn't always win the race, and the strongest warrior doesn't always win the battle. The wise sometimes go hungry, and the skillful are not necessarily wealthy. And those who are educated don't always lead successful lives. It is all decided by chance, by being in the right place at the right time.       

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